The Revolution Will Not Be Televised

its been a pretty good long time sence i have posted on here. i have been super busy i am now off the fire dept and just doing rescue work. it keeps be pretty busy in the summer i cant wait to see what the winter looks like.
over the last few months i have had some rough times. i had go a sleeve done on my arm it looks like shit right now because the last few months i have been super sick. i got bit by alot of very poisonis spiders. i was in the hospital in and out because i dont have medical insurance. they wont give me the proper care because i cant pay for it. they ended up scrubbing my tattoo on my arm so i didnt loose my arm to get all the poison and stuff out.
about a week after that the place that i was staying i got kicked out of there because i was putting so much money into going to the ER. it probably was the worst time in my life ever. i got a total of 10 bites in 3 wks the doctor said he cant figure out why i didnt die. thats always conforting when a doctor says that.
so after all that i ended up living in my car there for a pretty good time. lets just say that staying in your car on days when its over 100 degrees out sucks...
everything is working out slowly now i got a job that i really like. i maybe going to nashville here soon with it if so i am going to be happy with that.

me on the first day of the job

*cough* Terrorism Task Force *cough*


i am all about that shit i just found out more info on it. if i get the chance i will be the best at it.

sometimes i wonder why i left in the first place. i had a good deal going for me and i had some problems here and there and well here and there. i left the girl that i loved with all my heart and moved over 3 states away. i still do love her with all my heart and i want to tell her that. i have tried and tried again to move on but i cant. i wonder what it would be like if i was still with her and we were happy again. i bet it would rock.

i have had friends try to hook me up with other girls and all and it doesnt work. everytime i see one of those girls i just think of her. :( it does suck. maybe one day i will know if she feels the same.

i got on the dept. i am on a 90 day probation period. its all good. and i got to land a helocopter at the fire dept i went on a call with them before i was even on the dept.

people are so fucked up. let me tell u. i went to a accedent the other day. i made it there before ems and a few other rescue people. the accedent was way out in the middle of god knows where. so i got there and this car was flipped over and crushed. well i ran up to the car and the road was all flooded and nasty and a bunch of other stuff. so i ran running around the car to see if i could get them out and i couldnt, well i hear over the radio that ems couldnt find a drive that could drive the bus down there. well i was like fuck so i radio in and tell them how bad it is and i cant get them out of the car. so i try everything from pulling on the doors to breaking windows. nothing was workin. well about 15 mins later i hear the ems guys flying down the road. and what happens they get stuck in the mud. bc this road was bad and full of water. well they come running over and try to help the guy but they cant get to him bc the car is so messed up so finally i get pissed off bc of the lame ems guys and the other rescue guys not comin so i crawl into the car and begin to try to remove the guy from the car. well after getting into the car all i can smell is gas in the water so i was kind of freaked out that the car could blow up with me in it. well i end up gettind dude out of the car and he is still out of it i am sure he would be freaked out if he was awake. well after getting him out the ems guys didnt have any of there stuff over there. so i started bitchin at these new guys about how they are supposed to be saving people well about that time the guy wakes up. he put up a fight, hell i would too if i woke up and there was some dude yelling at 2 ems guys.

fucking ems people need to learn how to do there jobs.

the guy was ok i ended up walking him over to the bus and tried to help get it unstuck they ended up takin him to the hospital.

after that i was still sick and wet and being rained on.

so anyway my bday rocked i had a great time. i wanna thank everyone that came.

today i got to to work a tripple. its going to suck i will be home sometime after 9am.
i got regular work and then the night club.. :) a company told me the other day that they like my art work ;)
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check it out and let me know what u think

Today around 3pm i went over to the Red Cross to see what they called me for. They asked me if i wanted to work the shelter with them in clarksville and then they said they would see what they could get for me to go out with N. RC (National Red Cross) so they are having me work with the kids and the older people that are there. so i got there after getting some donations and running around for the RC. I made it just in time for dinner. I was looking around and they told me there is about 50 to 60 people here and 200 more on the way. i knew then i was going to have my hands full with helping out. when i was there i had a chance to sit down and talk to some of the people there about where they were from and how they got here. I sat down and talked to one man that lost his wife and kids he was about 60 or so maybe older the stress is getting to people bad. they had it on the news there so everyone could see what was going on and everything. Then i had a chance to talk to this older lady that was this lil' girls grandmother. the older lady told me that her parents were lost down there and she hopes they will find them soon. it was really sad to here all this but people will speak when someone is listening. the lil girl came over to me she was about 5 and asked me if i had found her parents. i told her no not yet but they are still looking for her mom and dad. she asked me if i was going to go help the men in the yellow suits that was her exact words. lol. i told her i would if i could but they told me i need to stay here and help the people that needed help. it was pretty sad. so then we had dinner there i didnt eat. i really havent eat in the last few days. It was pretty calm i have never seen so many people act like there is nothing wrong with whats going on but i know its killing them on the inside. it would me and it is. i know that for sure. i talked with one of the main guys for the red cross and he was like hey man you ready to work hard for the next week i was like sure so i will be there until these people go home. i will be working everyday after i get out of work. they gave me a office area to sleep in it has a chair and a floor i will have to bring in a change of clothes or so.. i think, well i know this week will be pretty crazy. i am takin pictures of everything i see and all so i can show people one day later down the road.

alex

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if there is no luckw ith jobs this week i am going to be inlisting in the military without doing rotc. they said when i was down there if i did that i will be for 100% goin to iraq.

so lets hope i find a job

last night was fucking hot in the club. it seemed like we had no AC but there was. i got to the club super early i had to fix one of the computers downstairs. it was a simple and like 2 min fix so i sat around and played nintendo games on a computer. it was fun did that for about 2 hrs. i finally got around to lookin at what time it was and it was about 8ish so i ran upstairs to the DJ booth and hung out up there. talked to my friend henry about getting me a full time job with his uncle that would rock. other then that. there was no one there really till about 1130 and then thats when that party started. i sware i have never see so many people in there before. there were a few fights. it was stupid we had security on them before they had the first punch in. then got to go do some security shit that was fun got to yell at some people at some stupid stuff and made them feel bad. after that my friend sara (she is super fucking hot) came over to me to spray me with some ice cold water it felt pretty damn good. after that i went back in and played more music. :)


later today i am going to go visit hanna she is moving to her college even though its like 45 mins from here its crazy. i will miss her tons even though we live a hour from each other right now.

boring...


i havent been up to alot lately. i been stickin to my work out plan so thats cool. other then that its about a billion fucking degrees outside and its night time. tomorrow is the 4th of july and i have to work. i really dont care at this point. i would have to say that i am kind of fed up with the way everyone sees the 4th of july and stuff. everyone is all happy and shit b.c they get a day off just think in 1776 life was hell. now its all good and everything. on another note today i was followed by a cop. well a few times today i was. i have no idea why i am just waiting for them to kid nap me or some shit. one cop followed me through a damn drive through how messed up is that.

last night i was talkin to a friend of my about anarchy. it was a good talk even though he may have thought i wasnt listenin or anything i was reading that website and watching that video. when he told me to never trust me leaders and stuff i was thinking you know i have never trusted anyone that has ever led me into a burning building or into the swaps of hell to find a missing person. idk why thats just the way i am with stuff like that know that if something were to go wrong i could get us out of the mess b.c thats just the kind of person i am. so on that note i guess i am a anarchist just like he said i was lol. o yea happy bday too :)

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last night. i was at fire school and i got to take another meth class and i loved it. not because we got to cook it b.c its just a fun class to take. the people came down from the army base near here for the class it was a pretty crazy class. i loved it though. in the middle of the class the rescue squad got called out there was a huge i mean HUGE ass wrech so that was intresting.

i got a cold or i am dieing. 1 of the 2.

at the college i went to a few weeks ago. i met tons of really nice people. people from all kinds of places the day that i got a letter that said that i got accepted to there college is the day that i found out one of there dorms caught on fire. taking the life of 1 young girl and sending 2 to the hospital. over 22 fire trucks came to the call. even though the fire dept was not even a half a mile from the fire they got there as fast as they could. there not sure how this fire started or whatever but i know it was pretty bad.


http://southern.edu/fireApril26/kellyheader.jpg
(April 13, 1985 - April 26, 2005)

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